POETRY
THIN FIGURES
(COMING SOON!)
Angelica is currently working on publishing a collection of poetry.
STAY TUNED!
In the meantime, enjoy this little preview and be glad that she is far from wading through teenagery, first-love angst.
Angelica will be concentrating on grown-up angst instead.
Imaginary Friend
Take a look at me now
Moving with the jet stream
Prescription sun lamps
Artificial light
To ward off season disorder
Dysfunctionality
And it is dark outside now
At 3 o’clock in the afternoon
I can’t escape this sadness
Thinking of you without pretense
That the day you tried
To take your life
Was a day like this is turning out to be.
The more you said I was beautiful
The thinner I got
Never had the stomach
For purging
But you know how we would always
Order everything off the menu
That was sweet and creamy
And would go straight to our thighs
Yet leaving the table only having
Laughed
And sipped bottled water
With great care and deliverance.
We talked about everything
And sometimes there would be
No laughter or joy at all
Like when you told me
Of abuse when you
Were thirteen
And I told you of death
When I was four
Our fathers gave us our
First taste of pain
I have never forgotten mine
You have never forgiven yours.
We shared everything
Except for spit and cheesecake
Even though I know you’ve
Wanted to kiss me for years
But you said that you don’t care
For things like sex anymore
Now that you’ve had enough
At twenty-three
And that you were all out of love
Without ever knowing what love truly is.
I have never wanted to be like you
Not afraid of dying
I didn’t intended on being like me
Scared to death
Of centipedes and old age
And losing the light
Which you so gracefully shine
Into my life without ever intending to.
Now the thing I want most is that
I want everything for you
I want a perfect and completely unique way
Of telling you
How incredible you are
When you’re not pretending
To be someone else.
Wandering Bliss
Reality sets in
Somewhere between your lips
And an infinite highway
That leads to nowhere
Like in that dream
Where nothing is familiar
And I am lost in ambiguity
Of a world lacking definitions.
And on every cold September night
I search for you through these tunnels
Paying my dues in toll booths
Requiring all that I have to give
But I am aching for you tonight
And so I soldier on
With a fierce sort of determination
That I will eventually find my way
Into your arms like being home again.
And so they tell me not to stray
From fall in New England
When all the pretty swans
Shed their skin and come out to play
But I’ve learned to maneuver my way
Around this quaint Pennsylvania town
For a little girl’s smile
And a little girl’s kiss
That has me wandering
For a little taste of this
Indescribable bliss.
In the middle of nowhere
That is where you are
And where my heart wants to be
Somewhere just outside of my reality
Because I am shivering from this cold
Waiting for your warm body
To lay down beside me
And keep me company through dreams
Of Italy
And of everyday, mundane things
Just as long as you are next to me.